BAGH WHY

Shopping is a damn good medicine

Shopping, cures EVERYTHING! haha!

Seriously, I was mad a disapointed, and then I went shopping and bought some CUTE ass shoes and outfits and now I am super smiley again haha! Go me! Not only taht but I came to realization... I'm on a break, he did something with somebody, you damn well know I am not just gonna be drunk and talk to them tonight... tonight Melanie will have some fun too... its a two way street... right?

Plus my cousin Kelley and Kristy helped me with that decision...

GUYS I bought a SKIRT go me! who would have ever thought, an dI am going shoppin tomorrow too... god I LOVE shopping, I forgot how much I liked it, I guess lately I jsut haven't spent money on myself... yay!!!!!!

I miss you

    In a way... I miss home, I miss my bed, and my personal space and my room, and ALL my clothes (although I did pack WAY too many haha and too many pairs of shoes, who would have thunk?) But I dunno if I want to go home quite yet, maybe by Tuesday I'll be ready. I do think I want to go to college here, the campus is awesome, and I can live with my aunt and uncle and work for my uncle fred until I get enough money to move out on my own! How awesome is that? I mean they all offered me those things already, ASU has a good softball team, so I could probably play ball and get some sort of a scholarship, so that'll help. Hmmm..... I am really thinking about it, I go on tour in ASU on Monday, today I just visited... so we'll just have to see, then we'll have to try to get in...

But I will my my Arizona, but I already miss my omaha, I miss getting drunk or just hanging out for taht matter with my old buddies, don't get me wrong these new people here are awesome, and sexy and tan haha... but nobody could replace my lathan, and no matter what he will always be MY lathan, and I will always be protective over him, that's just how your first love is, you always will love him and you always will want him... that's how it roles... sad...

God I hate growing up, who would have ever thunk that would say no to a hot sexy tan muscular guy(s) just for my one and only lathan, I guess nobody could be better then him... god... I HATE growing up and getting this feeling haha, I mean I hate it, but love it... you know?

Well

Melanies Advice for the day : If you are not in love yet, DON'T!!!! and Stay out of it haha!

Sitting here in Arizona

Well... here's my vacation so far...

I get here at 9:30pm Arizona time... and meet my cousin guys... one is 2 years old (almost 3), well he is my new best friend, and he is OBSESSED WITH BELLY BUTTONS! Every time he sees me he says "mewanys bewwy, ty-tys bewwy" that's how he talks haha. And EVERY where I go, he follows, and he wakes me up bright and early, but he's super cute, oh and he'll lift my shirt up, just so he can lay on it, he likes his skin to touch other people's skin, creepy ey? haha.

The weather is super nice, I went and saw my uncle fred and his new kitchen (he owns a real popular catering business, fat freddies, hes an awesome cook!) Saw my cousin Carson, for the first time in like 8 years, he's lookin.... good haha. Nina, I get you a hook up, I am gonna go hang otu with carson and his friends quite often, because he's 17... so yay! haha, somebody my age and not a 2 year old! Anyways... I dunno it's cool,

I miss my baby though....

SpRiNg BrEaK!!!!

Today = Beginning of spring break, school is out, spring break has officially began, time away from teens is DONE!!!

I leave for Arizona tomorrow at like 6:00 pm or something like that, maybe 4 pm I am not quite sure, I Don't exactly remember haha. I am going with my grandma collatz, my mom's side of the family lives in AZ, so this'll be fun. My cousins, well second cousins are closer to my age, so I will probably hang out with them! YAY! So excited, I am basically done packing, just a few more things, waiting for them to get out of the wash, oh well and I have to pack the shit that I use in the morning, so that'll be tomorrows!

Lathan left today for his Carribean cruise, him and I are very confusing right now, we aren't exactly... dating, but we are... basically, we are taking a break, i know I know there is no such thing, which is why this is so weird... we are figuring out what we for sure want, we know we like eachother a lot, and love being with eachother, believe me we have learned this throughout this week haha, but we weren't gonna get back together right before out vacations, I mean we won't see eachother for 12 days now... almost two weeks! OH MAN! haha, he means the world to me, and if he gets hurt on this cruise, I don't know... I honestly don't know... and if somebody tries to mess with him more then kissing him, that bitch better watch her back, because I have a way of finding out who you are... Okay, done being protective and mean

YAY VACATION!!!!!

Gonna go get ready for work...